I have come to realize that I am a control freak. I know it stems from my childhood. I look for small ways that I can let go and surrender. I practice letting go with the hope that it becomes a way of life.
The same strength, patience, trust, and courage it took to master “Crow Pose” is a testament to your holistic state-of-being. You did let go in that moment, and it was so powerful. Such an accomplishment in many ways…
I read and reread todays post. I was glad to be able to hear your voice speak the words. It helped me to fully receive the message. Allison I’m grateful for your post today. It’s is healing for me to understand someone else experiences things I can’t put into words. Perhaps you’ll share more as time goes by.
History celebrates great minds, especially those whom honest historians generally understand and agree with. However, the greatest minds who ever existed have all failed to prove the reasons for Being & Existence! The metaphysical escapes definitive definitions and understanding by all of them! Each individual human who cares, continues to debate and be puzzled by Questions of Existence:
Who am I?
Why was I born?
What is my purpose?
Why do bad things happen to good people?
Why do I feel guilty about my human failings"
"I am that I am" (Exodus 3:14) may satisfy some, but Faith in your individual value is essential. Perhaps, the answers to the mysteries of your life story can only be metaphysically known. However, guilty feelings are simply a tool that can be used against you, by you. When no real "sin" is present, guilt is being misused, and needs to be renounced. Love yourself as "the great Spirit" loves you, and no harm can ever permanently hurt you, You are loved, dear Allison. - MRVERITAS-SUBSTACK.COM
"Why do I seek, in my thoughts, what is destabalizing instead of what isnt?"
"I've got some deep ruts."
I'm stuck there and so appreciate your guidance further up that footpath, if I can get to that place where each step illuminates itself and the way to the next.
When it comes to not being the center of the universe, someone you know well once told me, "No one gives a **** about you." I needed to hear it, and I don't think anything less than that was going to get the message across. I stopped writing myself into every piece of my fiction, and it's improved drastically.
I think you're doing pretty well. You had some history many would not have been able to cope with. We'de like it to go faster, but if it did we'de probably spin to quickly. :)
I have come to realize that I am a control freak. I know it stems from my childhood. I look for small ways that I can let go and surrender. I practice letting go with the hope that it becomes a way of life.
Thanks for this post, Alllison. Yes, keep walking. 🥰💫💜
The same strength, patience, trust, and courage it took to master “Crow Pose” is a testament to your holistic state-of-being. You did let go in that moment, and it was so powerful. Such an accomplishment in many ways…
Allison, Glad to be on the journey with you— a minute at a time 🤣🙏🏽❤️
I read and reread todays post. I was glad to be able to hear your voice speak the words. It helped me to fully receive the message. Allison I’m grateful for your post today. It’s is healing for me to understand someone else experiences things I can’t put into words. Perhaps you’ll share more as time goes by.
Thank you Allison
#Nashville in my prayers 🌷
"Faith is the Hope that what we believe is True."
History celebrates great minds, especially those whom honest historians generally understand and agree with. However, the greatest minds who ever existed have all failed to prove the reasons for Being & Existence! The metaphysical escapes definitive definitions and understanding by all of them! Each individual human who cares, continues to debate and be puzzled by Questions of Existence:
Who am I?
Why was I born?
What is my purpose?
Why do bad things happen to good people?
Why do I feel guilty about my human failings"
"I am that I am" (Exodus 3:14) may satisfy some, but Faith in your individual value is essential. Perhaps, the answers to the mysteries of your life story can only be metaphysically known. However, guilty feelings are simply a tool that can be used against you, by you. When no real "sin" is present, guilt is being misused, and needs to be renounced. Love yourself as "the great Spirit" loves you, and no harm can ever permanently hurt you, You are loved, dear Allison. - MRVERITAS-SUBSTACK.COM
You are magnificent! You describe your insides so clearly, I recognize myself. It is so fine to not feel alone. Love your words.
Taking responsibility for our actions is one of the most difficult things we can do but if done correctly then the rewards outweigh the difficulties
I also think that taking responsibility for our thoughts is as important and equally as difficult Love your time words
"Why do I seek, in my thoughts, what is destabalizing instead of what isnt?"
"I've got some deep ruts."
I'm stuck there and so appreciate your guidance further up that footpath, if I can get to that place where each step illuminates itself and the way to the next.
Thank you for this, AM.
JB
JB , Allison is an amazing writer
What I especially love about her, she is always looking to do better
to find answers
Go easy on yourself, be patient, love yourself. Allison is ok. You’re doing the work. I applaud you. You’re a beautiful person.
When it comes to not being the center of the universe, someone you know well once told me, "No one gives a **** about you." I needed to hear it, and I don't think anything less than that was going to get the message across. I stopped writing myself into every piece of my fiction, and it's improved drastically.
Don’t think I’ll ever forget “addicted to my wounds”. Hmm.
I’m painting. Calms me down
Thank you
I think you're doing pretty well. You had some history many would not have been able to cope with. We'de like it to go faster, but if it did we'de probably spin to quickly. :)
I'm just here to listen today. I might benefit from more of that. I love you.
PS: I am listening. I hear you. I can feel it. With love.
Thank you for this post. Sturgill’s song Just Let Go might be a good listen for you today too.
Especially the version on “Cuttin’ Grass”
👍