Made it! And the new new mantra
Is
I am not alone and I can make this drive.
Of course it had to be a Ford Expedition — the same kind of car I drove the first time I took John Henry to camp. I remembered the feel of it well — top heavy, a little loosey goosey.
I worked on that traumatic memory through EMDR before I made the drive a second time. It helped then, and it helped this evening as I touched my locket every time I could bear to let go of the wheel — it’s my touchstone object because I wear it everyday.
I’m pretty sure I got here on the wings of the angels I asked for just before I pulled into a church parking lot and a man pulled in behind me. He was headed to Nashville too. We compared notes on the roads, and decided I’d follow his lead and we’d stick together till we made it to a bigger road — Highway 59. Sometimes you just need to know you aren’t alone, even if you are. Thank you to Hayes and Sissy for talking me through four plus hours of the eight it took to drive here.
Didn’t want y’all to worry.
Stay warm and safe.
Peace. Love.
Allison
Growth comes from the strangest places. Thankful you made it safely ❤️ try to stay warm
I flew to Tucson last month for a hoof trimming clinic with David Landreville who is a big fan of Hayes. I had my ballcap on with Hayes name on it and David lit up like a christmas tree when he saw it 😊 He’s a huge fan!
Anyways, reading what you wrote about driving struck a cord with me. I’m still trying to process my experience when i got into my rental car at the airport in Tucson. It was raining and it was dark, and i was ALONE in a strange place and for the first time in my life i was terrified of being alone, like trying to drive this car 20 minutes to an airbnb was utterly the worst experience. It was so dark and i could barely see cause of the rain and your in the middle of nowhere! Where had I gone?! The independent fearless person i’ve always been 😢 The whole experience has me thinking it’s deeper than i might understand. I know you have written about emdr and it has me intrigued. We live in the same area, can you suggest a place to go for this type of therapy? Not sure if it’s an age thing or the fact that i feel so scared to go anywhere anymore cause the world just feels different.
Thanx for sharing your story Allison, i’m glad you made it home safe.