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Your writing is taking my breath away.

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Thank you, Jackie. x

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The squirrel's boundaries are determined by what's available. When you fill the feeder, you have enabled him to self actualize and perhaps expand (his girth if not his dreams). He live's in the moment 100%. Life should be so easy. I love you to the green comet snd beyond

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Indeed. x

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I just got home after visiting friends who live a few hours away for the day and came home to your thoughts. I really love reading them and I’m glad that you have come back to us. That’s all. Have a lovely weekend! Px

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Glad you're back

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Me too.

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PS: I wanted to add something I remembered hearing once about integrity. I can’t credit it and it’s probably not accurate but it’s something like: “Integrity is about being whole, being at one with yourself. Lies and false truths start to shatter you and break you into pieces so, in the end, you don’t know which part is the real you”.

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That’s a good description. Let us not forget integrity, integrated, integral — these words are all of the same family.

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Yes, and thank you again for writing and sharing. Much love.

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p.s. Allison, I am learning all this in my older age, now. I'm slowly unraveling and becoming aware. When you write, I relate, dear kind soul.

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Knowing you relate gives me reason to continue. x

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Squirrelly needs to eat too 🐿️🙃

Thank you for today’s and yesterday’s thoughts. Keep on the journey to wholeheartedness!!

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Thank you, Karen.

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Can relate to some of this as a recovery sister.❤️🙏🏽 Growth is everything. So is integrity. Glad we’re both on the path towards both.

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I’m seeing you. x

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“... not being to honor how I feel because it was set up long ago that I was to please others even if it made me feel like I was going to die....” Lord. Yes. Thank you for sharing this. 🙏🏻

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I know you know. x

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Skipping over feelings I don’t have the ability to address and then turning my anger towards those I blame due to my inability...from trauma as a little boy onward.

That cuts deep and to the crux.

Wow, AM. Wish I could be so much more like you in your self exploration and healing. You’re always doing your best to show us the way. Your honesty is ever present.

It’s exhausting to be this way but I bet it brings you so much energy to beat it.

Then there’s the bottle...that must be addressed.

So thankful you’re back. Better than ever. JB

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I have more energy than I’ve ever had, JB. To know I can handle myself and don’t have to guard myself against life all the time gives me a new lease, day by day. x

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I am crying. Thank you for your honesty🙏

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Boundaries. Yeah, I need them. I waffle between people-pleasing and isolation. I am learning how to really live for the first time in my 51 years on this planet. It's hard work. Oh boy, it's worth the work. Your writing touches my soul.

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Wow, just this morning I had to set boundaries on my youngest daughter. The other daughter reassuring me I needed to. The biggest boundary was on me. I have recognize my part in the drama I invite into my life. Thanks for sharing your thoughts.

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Such a rave and honest post, AM. So glad you’ve started writing again. You inspire the rest of us to dig as you are. Congratulations to be on the other side.

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Brave, not rave! Oops.

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Dear Heart:

"As far as we know,

the clock of life is wound but once.

No person has the power to tell

just when the hands will stop.

Now is the only time you own.

Live, love, study, learn,

and work hard with a determination

to use all of your talents for good.

Place no faith in time;

for the clock may soon be still.

To a person who lives their life with integrity

no lasting harm can ever come."

Be healthy. Stay Safe. _ Tony

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